two weeks down

Okay...so Abe and I have been back at work and it has been nuts!!! The first day that I left my little man was soooooooo hard. Even though I knew he was in great hands I couldn't help but feel like I was being a bad mommy by leaving him. I went to work and cried hysterically all morning. We had a staff meeting in the morning and I sat in back crying the whole time, part of the meeting was to introduce ourselves and say what we did over the summer, I couldn't even talk I was crying so hard missing him. It was a little help that there was another mommy sitting right by me feeling the same way (Sandy and I tried to help each other). The next day I only cried a little in the morning and each day got a little better. I was very fortunate because my very good friend, Mayda, watched him for me and she brought him to me at lunch so I could feed him =) (I am loving breastfeeding because I feel like it is bonding time with Lucas that is built in throughout the day). I had another melt down this past tuesday when I went back to work after a 3 day weekend, I had to leave him all over again. I got to work and a lot of my students were having separation issues with their parents which made it a little harder for me, it was cool because Elena brought him to me so I could feed him ( Yes Elena is the one that is watching him now). The rest of the week I did much better.

These past two weeks have afforded me the opportunity to really appreciate my son. Each day I got home and I was absolutely ecstatic to see my baby. It made me even more excited to watch Abe's face glow when he got home and saw Lucas, it made my heart melt. What has been even better about the situation is that each day Lucas shares a moment with me in the morning where he lets out a big belly laugh so I know he is okay.

Lucas is getting so big! He is now able to get his knees under himself, so we know he will be crawling in no time at all. He laughs and smiles all of the time, he is really a happy baby (he hope he stays like that). He also has started sleeping through the night, last night he slept from 8:45 to 6:30 so we have really gotten some good sleep. I am so excited to see him continue to grow and develop. ~ Valarie