Lack of Sleep

These past couple of days have been really interesting...Lucas has been kind of a monster when it comes to taking naps. He didn't really nap for 2 days, he only slept at night, but he was over tired and a little fussy. Now today, he fell asleep at 4:30pm and woke up at 9:15pm, ate and went right back to sleep. It is so nuts cause once I think that I am figuring him out, he changes things up (I guess he is trying to keep me on my toes).

I am starting to get more and more nervous about going back to work =( Today I had a conversation with my aunt and I was telling her how am feeling. I so thought I would be excited to go back to work but I'm not, I don't want to leave Lucas. I know that I have it lucky compared to so many women who have to go back after 4 or 6 weeks (I had 3.5 months). I just still know I am going to miss him so much (I know I have probably already written about this, but I just can't help it b/c that is all that is on my mind lately).

On top of being anxious about leaving him, I am worried that his sleep pattern, or lack of one, will be an issue once I go back to work. Right now it is not that big of a deal b/c I can sleep when he naps, but during the school year that is not possible. I guess I just have to think positive, and hope that everything turns out ok. ~ Valarie

Blessed

I am beginning to realize that God has blessed me in so many ways. Not only do I have a beautiful son, but a man that loves me and takes care of me. Tonight I sat at my mom's house with Aileen and Eileen and all of us were talking. The topic of what is done around the house came up and I realized how much Abraham does for Lucas and I every single day. I could not ask for a better father for my son or a partner to be with me for the rest of my life. I hope that Lucas knows and learns as he gets bigger what a wonderful father he has. Abraham loves both of us soo much and he both shows us and tells us each day, and I am learning that I need to do it much more often in return. I love to see him hold Lucas and just rock him to sleep because I know that he does it with all of the love that he has in his heart. And he is there for me whenever I need him, which is a lot =)

I am so happy to have to have the two best guys in my life ~Valarie

Wide Awake

So it is 11:00pm right now and I am wide awake. I put my little guy to bed in his crib for the first time tonight. I find myself sitting here waiting for him to wake up, rather than trying to rest myself. It is funny to me because before I had Lucas I used to make comments about people who did not put their babies to sleep in their cribs, now I am that person and I completely understand how they feel. I feel like he is so far away and that something might happen and I would never even know (even though his monitor is right next to me). It is kind of sad too because usually he needs to be by me to sleep, I feel like he is getting big already =( What is worse is that Abe is not here, he is playing soccer, so I am here to worry all by myself. Hopefully this will just get easier as time goes on! ~Valarie

little big guy

I look into his big brown eyes and get absolutely lost...My little big guy already has me wrapped around his tiny little finger. I find myself just watching him sleep, hoping that he will wake up so I can see him smile. And I'm starting to get nervous about leaving him once I have to go back to work =(

When we went to the doctor the baby weighed 12lbs. that puts him in the 65%, so he is not growing to be as big as we thought he would be, but the doctor says he is growing well. We did find out he has acid reflux and he has to take medicine, he is doing much better. He is sleeping much better, and is gradually getting a little less fussy.

Bella and Austin have been great with him, they both want to change his diapers and hold him. He really likes when they talk to him. Lucas loves being with my mom, he is so calm with her compared to everyone else and Gordy keeps him entertained =)

I can't wait to see what the rest of this week has in store for our little family ~ Valarie

Summer Love

Wow! I never thought that someone could enter my life and that I would instantly fall head over heals in LOVE with them. I was afraid, before Lucas was born, that I would not be able to bond with him (boy was I wrong). He is here and I find myself happier than I have ever been.

This summer has been GREAT so far! This past week Bella and Austin spent some time with me, Abe and Lucas. It has been wonderful, I didn't really realize how much I missed spending time with them until they were here. We went to the lake front two days to play on the playground and go skating (skate board and scooter). We ate lunch down there too. Both of the kids have been super helpful, they want to help me do everything for Lucas (even change his diapers). They have also spent a lot of time asking to hold him and making him laugh and smile. Both Bella and Austin have been very patient also, they seem to understand that I have to feed the baby and that it takes a long time. We have also played with the hose and water balloons and gone grocery shopping.

On thursday we took Lucas to the zoo for the first time. We went with mom, gordy, bella, and austin. It was fun to just take in the sights, spend time with the family, and show Lucas something he has never seen before (even though he will not remember it).

We can't wait to see what the rest of the summer has in store! ~ Valarie

Right now I am feeding Lucas, that seems to be what I am always doing these days.   Things have been awesome lately.  I am so in love with my baby boy and could not imagine my life without him.  Abe and I have been relaxing so far this summer, just getting used to be being a mommy and daddy.  We know that we need to start getting some things accomplished around the house but it is so wonderful to spend with our little big guy.  Hopefully soon we can find someone to re-do our bathroom and we can do some of the yard work we have been wanting to accomplish.

Lucas has a doctor appointment in a week, so we will get to see how much he weighs and make sure that everything is okay. (On a side note Lucas is sitting looking up at me and smiling and cooing right now).  he is becoming such a character now.  He definitely lets us know what he wants and loves when we sit and talk to him.

We will check in soon.  ~Valarie