Gaining control

So our little Lucas is almost 3 1/2 months old and he is growing so fast. In the past couple of weeks his motor skills have really developed. He has learned to grab his foot and put things into his mouth. The other night we video taped him while he was having his tummy time and he was able to get his knees under his body and push forward. Lucas rolls over with no problem now, we have to be careful so he doesn't roll off of anything. He is sleeping longer stretches at night, but he still gets up one time. The one thing that I know we need to do is get him to bed earlier, he has been going to sleep at about 11:30 every night and that is going to be really hard once school starts.

So this weekend we went to Sheboygan for Elena and Angel's wedding. Abe and I went up on friday to just get away for a little while before we have to go back to work. It ended up being a lot of fun. Friday it was gloomy outside so we just hung around the hotel most of the day. On Saturday we had the wedding. Lucas was sooo cranky on Saturday, it made it really difficult to get ready. That day was the first time that I think I got overwhelmed with everything. I felt myself on edge and so was Abe. We were getting snippy with eachother, and I was even getting snippy with people at the wedding. Saturday was the first time that I got so frustrated with people telling me what to do with Lucas and trying to take him from me. I feel like I really try to let the baby go with who ever when we are at functions because I know that everyone wants to hold the baby, but Saturday I knew he was fussy and over tired and just wanted to get some rest. I felt myself trying to protect him, and the only way I knew to do this was to hold him myself. How do you balance, as a mom, encouraging your child to be social and go with anyone and putting your foot down when you feel that they should be with you? I still feel like I am going to need to learn more about this balance.

On Sunday we were all much better and had a great day at the Sheboygan lakefront, which is much better than milwaukee. It was gorgeous and it didn't stink and the dogs loved it.

Well, I'm going to have to continue learning how to create a balanced life for Lucas, while maintaining a balanced life for our whole family. ~Valarie